Well, dear blog, it has been a while, hasn't it? 2 years, to be exact. I have come back for you though, my long-lost friend.
Reading through these old posts, I feel like an entirely different person.... still young, still a thinker, a question-asker, and an explorer (of sorts)... but I have grown up. How about a quick update?
I have become a lady.
Not the lady that I will be, or the lady that I hope to be, but a lady nonetheless. These past two years I have become content with myself. I understand who God made me to be, and I *dare I say it?* like her. Now, do not misunderstand me: there is much improvement to be made, but I am trusting God to make them, in His timing. I have learned to relax and wait. Rome wasn't built in a day.
I know my Savior Yahweh in a way that I never have before. I feel as though I am just scratching the surface, but slowly he is allowing me to discover Him. Never have I been on adventure like this one.
I have been given a man. (for now at least)
God taught me self-control last year through my friendship with a certain young man. (Further more this "certain young man" shall be referred to as "Homeboy") Over that year, specifically the spring, God "refined my pining heart." I built so many altars, and surrendered so many hopes and desires that year, but last summer, to my utter surprise, He gave them back. Homeboy, in his usual respectful way, talked to my father, and we embarked on the adventure of courtship.
"Courtship" sounds so lame to me and immediately infers pressure and awkward side hugs, so we ditched that title, and about two months ago, Homeboy became my boyfriend. We have constructed a courting-dating hybrid,(Cating?)and guys... it rocks the Casbah.
I really do believe that I will marry Homeboy, but day-by-day, I am learning a new kind of surrender. I have to be ready to give him back to God, if ever he should ask for him back.
I am trusting that He will provide abundant grace and dark chocolate if ever that is asked of me.
I still love clothing.
I just do.
Now that I have re-discovered you, my old friend, I don't know if I will keep you up, or abandon you again. Knowing myself, it is likely to be the latter, but I will try.
I really have missed you.
